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"To Tell A Story" contest.
I want to let you in to the last two years of my life. The last two years of a nearly six year Army career. This is a true story, but you can think it's completely made up if you wish. I've been struggling with the military and what it as allowed to happen to me. I am a rape survivor, most recently because of the military.
My second drill at a new unit in North Carolina, September 2012, I had no friends. A male NCO befriends me, and he suggests we go get some dinner after drill. He picks the place because it sells alcohol. I had a bad feeling, but I went anyways. He asked to take my car, because his car required a breathalyzer test to start. He bought me drinks and I drank them, though I told him I really shouldn't drink. Later, back at lodging, I stumbled up the stairs to go to bed. Soon, he came to my room to "check on me." And I stupidly let him in.
I didn't report it for a year and a half, actually, I never reported it. It caused hell in my marriage, it almost ended multiple times over my refusal to report it. Finally in March of this year, it was reported. Not by me, but by one of my fellow soldiers who overheard my husband screaming at me about it.
After that, I had to talk to Criminal Investigators (CID) and was appointed a lawyer. CID was brutal, I had to go in to every detail I could remember from that night, over and over again (trying to get me to change my story) and I had to give witnesses. Every single witness I had was an NCO, and every single one "couldn't remember."
I was also banned from drill, I was no longer able to go. Not only me, but the NCO and my husband were no longer able to attend either. I was, and still am confused, as to why neither my husband nor myself were allowed to attend drill and continue receiving a paycheck. I was the victim, and my husband was deployed at the time it had occurred.
This past week I learned the NCO who's facing charges from not only me, but also drug charges, has been attending drill. Receiving a paycheck. He was also named Soldier of the Month this past weekend and is still a Squad Leader.
The way the military handles sexual assault is appalling, and it's treatment of the victims is equally disgusting. I'm still awaiting word as to whether or not the case will go to trial, they have my rape kit, his testimony, my testimony, most of the clothes I was wearing that night. It's been eight months. At this point in my military career, I hate it. I want them to kick him out, or if they won't, kick me out.
October 9, 2014
Willow Spring, NC
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